Monday, October 18, 2010

Write.Unwrite. Erase. Delete. Adjectives for the inevitable End to words, and pasts. To what they have done, and what they could do- in your head, of course. It only ever mattered in there, where your own demons chase you around in echoing circles that never cease to exist. Unless you erase and delete, of course. But how does one go about erasing and deleting chapters of one's life? How can your mind regurgitate the blank-slate-state-of-being, throw it up and slip it on- at any rate, it's never going to be the real deal, is it?
It can be very convincing. True. And if you stop it from chasing you, that's half the battle won, perhaps even more.
But where to begin. Really, where?

1 comment:

A said...

Sometimes, I can literally feel your hands typing the words.
Less creepily put, I know what you mean.
:) You just...wait. And tell yourself that whatever you lost from your life, you lost for a reason. And that today, the person that you are owes everything to those losses.
If that makes any sense.