Tuesday, July 14, 2009

I walk away again with my heart in my hand. Exit stage.
Here comes the routine I know all too well.
I switch off my phone not because I'm afraid there'll be messages, that I'll have to talk. I do it because I'm afraid of the exact opposite. My strategy: reject before being rejected. Fuck up before being fucked over.
I hate my defense mechanisms.

5 comments:

nuclearbattery said...

we all have defense mechanisms. I suppose the only thing to do is to try an prevent premature explosions where its concerned.

Anonymous said...

whats funny is, your defense mechanisms will only ever turn on when that one guy who's not a complete prick comes along!! You cant really blame men for being a-holes, its the safest thing to be!

Anonymous said...

And the wheels keep on turning.

Mano said...

Sanaa.

The selves have re-appeared. Follow us.

Anonymous said...

I do the same. If i see something fading away, losing its meaning, i just kill it beforehand. I hate the way i end things myself before someone else does, to protect myself. But it hurts more. Way, way more